Dear Universe,       

      There are those who romanticized empowerment as an evolutionary process.  When in truth, it is a full circle back to who you always have been on the inside; all else is distraction.

       Being empowered is not a realization of all the ego’s greatness.  It is a introspection of how your unique identity is greatly flawed to shine greatly. The realization of this feels like the soft and shallow rush and undertow of the ocean’s tide.  The prickling skin when the cold spring breeze meets the bright warm sun.

      There are no flashing lights or red carpets when you come back to yourself; it feels like Home.


Copyright 2016©


It was just like looking right into the mirror of my shadow self.  The darkness overwhelmed me this time. Cried so hard that my nose bled. There wasn’t a way to surface for air for about two days.

Transparency took over my life for awhile & the idea of curling up only made me want to scream bloody murder. I only wanted to take off to find where my spirit had hidden my happiness….it wasn’t my spirit that hid it.  It’s that I hid my happiness inside your heart.

There is this long held belief that we put our happiness in someone who doesn’t deserve it.  Although, what happens when you place that happiness in someone who truly appreciates you?

The problem is: when something happens to shake our world, it truly is only to wake us up from our slumber.  Too many times do we waste our time stressing on the wrong subjects of our lives. When death visits the threshold of our lives, we have one of two responses:

  1. We run for the  hills, curl up inside our mind & refuse to feel it OR find an unhealthy outlet.
  2. The moment we allow it to hit us & feel it completely, we beginning the healing process quicker.

The truth is that in order to really feel anything, we MUST feel transparent to transform.  There is a profound transformation that happens when death comes around & knocks on our doors.  It shows our mortality & it risks the truth: that we really do feel and we know the same truth as everyone else; Our lives mean nothing without the justification of love & memories with the one person we may never get to express & show our feelings for again.


……..when the opportunity of showering our love on another is almost stolen from us, we see the transparency of our ego & that expressing our love for friends and family could possibly be the only true meaning in the creation of this vast universe & for being on this beautiful blue marble.



Copyright 2016

Clouds & Tall Trees

I, sometimes, ponder the things & people that float out of my life. But then I realize I’m a cloud trying to fit in with a bunch of really tall trees. It must be, that many judge me for floating because they were too afraid of the fall to float too . I will not remember the words you said but the actions you never took; I will love you regardless & watch the storm brew above yr head as I look down at you
& your self-inflicted issues. — Patience is my strong suit, if you don’t think so: then find out. 


Only five letters.

Of such incredible power.

The spirit behind the entire word.

It can bring your universe together,

Or blow your world apart.
A promise made,

Only three words create.
The detrimental,



marvelous grandeur in this single vessel.
Single words alone cannot be coherent.

Only with the lesson of loneliness,

Would a spirit truly understand this.
Because there is a place,

That not many wander to purposely.


       With much thought engendered this poem/riddle. Most at a young age won’t come to undersand the greatness behind this poem. Thus, it’s up to those who do, to set the example of what it’s like to feel there & to truly be present in the situations that we promised we would.

     It takes courage to continue on as the person that I see myself as in the future. It’s not easy continuing to watch people pull themselves down into oblivion of no-returns. How do you teach a person that they deserve better without getting angry? 

  1. You release all ownership of the gifts you give because once they were only a blessing to you.
  2. You purge the brainwashed idea of entitlement, as if you are owed anything.
  3. You remind yourself that you also one day will need support & blessings. Karma works like that,
  4. You MUST WALK YOUR TALK. Teach everyone by making an example of your life.

     I believe the most tremendous obstacle & biggest lesson that we, as a human race, must learn is to humble ourselves & stop with the ego trips because it’s unattractive & a waste of the life you are living.  Life is built on servitude & joy. You do not have joy without some type of servitude. If you believe otherwise, you are a fool & have a whole lotta learning to do.

Messes, Madness & Wisdom.

      Without messes, we cannot truly experience madness. Without feeling madness deeply, we cannot truly appreciate the experience & learn the hidden wisdom. And if all we see are messes then the madness serves no purpose & the wisdom will forever be lost to the jungles of superficiality & shallowness. Depth comes from the mess.


Choice, Chance & Challenge

      I have been contemplating the Chances & Challenges that are presented to us throughout our lives. Also in every morning that we wake…..that for an instance: we have a Choice of whether it shall be a Chance or a Challenge to live our lives.

     It’s an important reminder, that we always forget. Not as if we take life for granted on purpose but more importantly that we do not know the value of life & waking up every morning with every ability to pursue our dreams and we do not. – It’s so vital that we bring ourselves back to the peaceful decision of seeing our every single morning as a Chance to face our Challenges.

     If we refuse to see the world as a singular Chance; we shall be consumed by our Challenges and Consequently consumed by our misery. – ‘Why is ‘misery’ crossed-out?’, you contemplate curiously. Well, because it has no real place in this entire message that I have to motivate you ;).

     That is the morale of this blog. – For quite sometime I have lost my own Motivation. Not intentional but a necessity to re-discover the importance of writing, the person I am, of who I want to be and of my intuitive connection with my own spirit. — It’s been a truly divine ride in the past two years that I have not posted.

      When you see “divine ride”, I am sure you are imagining a thrilling & exciting turn of events but that would not be the case at all. I have since then: had my world crushed, my ideals diminished, my moral shredded & my identity utterly reduced to that of only the insecurities I had. Every aspect of who I imagined/saw in my mirror had been revealed as truly an imagined cartoon. It took more than a cartoon of who I was to hold the weight of family stress, family strife, spiritual transformation & mental rehabilitation as I did.

“On the road to Transformation, everything you know around you & inside of you MUST be destroyed before anything new can be created.”

     Take into perspective that in order to restrain your own ego, you must reside in a neutral ground (even as traumatic as life can be) and proceed with the strength of neutrality because you are simply in a “Life Building Moment”. It not only builds you. It builds the skills, techniques & wisdoms that you will absolutely need after this/that moment has passed.

           In an instance of my own life: neutral strength overwhelmed me when the goal of my actions were much more grand compared to my own selfish needs to be emotionally satisfied. — My sister was hospitalized for 2 months because of a brain infection…..and then the love, care, security & responsibility of my niece was mine; this goal was far more grand, than that of satisfying my own emotions. I do not have my own children but I would not allow my emotions to be the controlling factor in this defining moment of my character. — The Strength of Neutrality aided me beyond what I had realized in that time. This was a Life Building Moment for me.

    On the other hand, if you refuse to build your strength of neutrality then you are forever condemning your intelligence to stagnant. The mind thrives in conditions that require it to be used although the passion in your spirit will fade when your mind ignores the moments that can build you.

     In conclusion: you will see what I say here to be true. If you are in the midst of a ‘Life Building Moment’, then you will not agree.